31 Dec Only The Best.
Recently I had an epiphany that I deserve only the best things in life. It feels radical to write such a thing, however I’m convinced it’s the truth.
With it being the end of the year, I’ve really been reflecting on my life. I noticed a pattern of how I often times choose lesser things in life, or make peace with the idea of imperfections and being late, and negligence, and wrinkles and blemishes and basically everything that is less than perfect…except for when it comes to songwriting and music.. I always strive for perfection in music, but so many other areas I typically give excuses for falling short.
I was also reflecting on God’s faithfulness in my life and how He only gives me His best and most finest things. For one, He gave His only Son and most prized possession… Jesus, as atonement for all of my shortcomings and to fill all of my discrepancies in His sight. There’s nothing in me that innately warrants this kind of love and treasure from the God of all the universe, but still He insists on seeing me (and you!) as worthy of His very best. There’s nothing 2nd rate about God, but even He found His a most prized possession in His Son Jesus… and that was the very thing He sacrificed for me and all of humanity.
I also reflected on the amazing events that God brought to pass in my life and how they blew my mind. Like when I went from singing in Central Park for over 10 yrs with my family and not being offered a single record deal from anyone, not even from a 2nd, 3rd, or 4th rate record label. Then all of a sudden all within 24hrs I’m connected on email with Jay-Z and find myself sitting in His office at the top of NYC. One of the biggest superstars in the world ends up signing me and my family to one of the fairest deals I have EVER seen.
Here’s another example. Rarely have I collaborated as a songwriter with any artists outside of my family… People always told me that I needed to build my collaborative portfolio and I was open to it but didn’t know where to begin. I’m thinking I could find some young up and coming artists that would want to collaborate with me, but God was thinking… nah, I need you to be writing for Kanye.
I can tell you stories for days… of all the times God did exceedingly beyond what I could ask or think and went straight to giving me the best and causing me to jump over all sorts of steps on the social ladder. God sees me higher than I see myself, yet at the same time He sees ALL of my flaws. IT MAKES NO SENSE!! But it’s love.. so it doesn’t have to.
This scripture Ephesians 6:25-27 is my word for this season.
“Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the Word, that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish.”
There’s no room for excuses or sloppiness in this equation. I’m a Christian and so that makes me a part of this Church that Christ intends on washing and perfecting until there are no more spots, wrinkles, or blemishes. He knows that He deserves only the best, He also knows that what I think is the best falls wayyy short of His definition of the best. I’m so thrilled that He will do the work of refinement in me, I just need to cooperate and come along for the journey. I know He’s standing by lovingly ready to take me through the process of refinement and cleanse me from my insecurities, traumas, attitude problems and every wrinkle and blemish in my heart, with the washing of water by His Word.
So here’s my New Years resolution.
- Don’t make peace with anything less than the best, and as I’m becoming, have grace for the process.
- View the people around me as deserving of the best, and hold them to a standard of seeing themselves and me as deserving only the best.
Though I’ll never be perfect on this side of eternity, let the story of my life be one that reads, “from glory to glory, she gave her best”